Tom The Beatnik

I know this isn’t a problem most people expect to have, but… I wish I could be meaner. OK, let me walk that back. I don’t want to be mean but I wish I could be not nice especially to people who don’t deserve me being nice to them. People who have taken advantage of my niceness and my willingness to forgive. People who aren’t all that nice to me or treat me with the same nice-ness or respect or what have you.

I wish I could just not care. Not be mean, not be malicious or anything like that but just not care and be comfortable and ok with that. Being willing to leave things in a not good state, not awful, but just not good and then moving along. 

But I have to try to be nice and make things nice, even when it ends up hurting me like hell. This is what being a nice guy gets you, I guess. 

Nice guys, we do finish last. 

The end.